During
the whole year that came after that walk on
the dirt road of the tropical jungle, we struggled
with our feelings for each other. I
had one foot out the door and the other firmly
inside. My soul was divided in two. I
had a passion for JJ while I wanted total
freedom. I was falling in love with
someone else while still loving JJ and during
that time, as JJ jealousy and pain grew and
my agonizing time intensified, we worked on
the ten sessions I now called the via crucis.
I
was subjected to the whip.. while my passionate
love, my jealous lover, held the whip.
That
was a risky proposition."
